wouldnt it be funny if i started posting on this xanga insted of my other one...hehe it throw people all of kilter and such...that would be crazy ya know. people would be all...woah im so confused...im done...bye

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses

...im so fucking gay

ATTENTION...new xanga name is LOSTinabrandnewSOUL. so supscribe to that name

           peace

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and (loved) most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

It all built up, inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

today was fun, im confused, i love cornbread. thats all you need to know

                                  ~peace~

When I was born, they looked at me and said
what a good boy, what a smart boy, what a strong boy.
And when you were born, they looked at you and said,
what a good girl, what a what a smart girl, what a pretty girl.

We've got these chains that hang around our necks,
people want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath. Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same,
when temptation calls, we just look away.

This name is the hairshirt I wear,
and this hairshirt is woven from your brown hair.
This song is the cross that I bear,
bear it with me, bear with me, bear with me,
be with me tonight,
I know that it isn't right, but be with me tonight.

I go to school, I write exams,
if I pass, if I fail, if I drop out,
does anyone give a damn?
And if they do, they'll soon forget 'cause it won't take much for me to show my life ain't over yet.
I wake up scared, I wake up strange.
I wake up wondering if anything in my life is ever going to change. i wake up scared, I wake up strange
and everything around me stays the same.


I couldn't tell you that I was wrong,
chickened out, grabbed a pen and paper, sat down and I wrote this song. I couldn't tell you that you were right,
so instead I looked in the mirror,
watched TV, laid away all night.

We've got these chains, hang 'round our necks,
people want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath.Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same when temptation calls ...

When I was born, they looked at me and said;
What a good boy, what a smart boy, what a strong boy.
And when you were born, they looked at you and said;
what a good girl, what a smart girl, what a pretty girl.

...yeah

LAST NIGHT FUCKING ROCKED...the hole day was pretty sweet too but the night especially rocked hard. first i left school early for to go hang out with pete andrea and time..good time. we went to java and talked about how dark our souls are. we hate live. haha. after that we went to shawns and hung for a while. did some things. it was fun. then we went to work, but later he came home and it was cool. around 730 we left for the show at the penny arcade. mr mcdonnels band and like 4 others played. the first  2 kinda sucked dick but mcdonalds band just schooled it like none other. i almost got punched in the face tho about 14 times..which sucked. oh well after a while we left and got back to shawns around 130 i believe it..was my amazing directions got us all back save. "uhh dude dont get off for a long ass time k" ahha i hate myself oh well. so much fun. we stayed up for a balls of time which was cool cause we usually dont. today i went and saw screweds band practice. my friend impress me so much. they are geting sooo good. i love them fellas. ahh well thats it for now. ill update tommarow im sure about the fetivities tonight. gonna be crazy as shit yo. haha never again.

                            peace bitches

My words are weapons in which I murder you with please don't be scared please do not turn your head we are the future the 21st. century dyslexic glue
sniffing cybersluts with homicidal minds
and handguns we are insane nothing
will change we are insane nothing will change

there is a thin line between
what is good and what is evil and I will tiptoe down that line but I will
feel unstable my life is a circus and I am tripping down the tightrope well
there is nothing to save me now so i will not look down and again and again
and again it happens again and again and again there's no beginning there is
no end there is only change progression backwards is this where we are
heading take back your soul forget your emptiness there is a thin line
between what is good and what is evil and I will tiptoe down that line but I
will feel unstable my life is a circus and I am tripping down the tightrope
well there is nothing to save me now I'm falling to the ground falling to the
ground down to the ground i speak of madness my heart and soul I cry for
people who aint got control lets take our sanity lets take compassion and be
responsible for every action hell no know how the way the way the way know
how the way know how there is a thin line between what is good and what is
evil and I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable my life is a
circus and I am tripping down the tightrope well there is nothing to save me
now so I will not look down there is a thin line between what is good and
what is evil and I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable my
life is a circus and I am tripping down the tightrope well there is nothing
to save me now I'm falling to the ground down to the ground all the way down

SOoooooooooooooooooo, lately all my friends have been bitching about one thing or another so maybe i should do the same...here goes

well, i forgot. so ill just ramble for a while. Not too much going on lately. a couple cool events coming up soon. this friday. A concert at the penny arcade. Mr mcdonnels band is play and me shawn and im sure other people will be going. gonna be a good time. ROCK ON. next weekend is prom. Thats gonna be a good time i guess. im spending time with the people i love most..well some of them. Soon after that senior night at darien lake. Thats gonna be hot shit. im sure im going with friends. well i know im going with friends or else i wouldnt be going. Soon after that the blink show. which is gonna be the end all to hotness. i will have a boner for days. sorry to say but its all good. idk not too much else going on. chillin mainly. i have told a few girls about my feelings for them this year and all has ended badly and ya know. it sucks. so from now untill the end of the year i think im gonna fly solo for a while, unless i find a girl who is like the end all to cool. then maybe ill consider it. it could you be you. haha well thats it for now. so heres a quote from blow. the movie, about cocaine.

-So in the end, was it worth it? Jesus Christ. How irreparably changed my life has become. It's always the last days of summer and I've been left out in the cold with no door to get back in. I'll grant you I've had more than my share of poignant moments. Life passes most people by when they're busy making grand plans for it. Throughout my lifetime I've left pieces of my heart here and there. And now, there's almost barely enough to stay alive. But I force a smile, knowing that my ambition far exceeded my talent. There are no more white horses or pretty ladies at my door. -george jung-

 ...thats it for now.